Going a bit crackers......

Who on earth decided we needed hormones...ok ok, I get the baby making bit but who decided they can sometimes make you feel like complete and utter shite, I mean sometimes I go crazy in the head, completely barking mad and my mind does the strangest of things!!! I also have to confess..I talk to myself all the time and (oh god) out loud, it's obviously a family thing as my dad did it too, I'd often catch him talking away to himself, proper full on arguments and if he knew I'd seen him he'd get all embarrassed and scuttle away.  It needs to stop I think...but how?? I never fall out with myself and rarely answer back, it's actually quite nice to be right all the time but then there's the whole, she's going a bit mad!!!

This is where I've decided it's time I found myself some hobbies, to do something more constructive with my time (other than talking to myself), and also find out who 'Bee' really is, not the girl who always follows the leader, does as they do, wear what they wear, say what they say.  It's always, I wish I had that, I wish I could be like that rather than being happy with little old me, so a plan is what I need, oh and of course a list, I LOVE LISTS!!!

First thing first, get my head around this bloody crocheting, looks more like spaghetti junction so my wonderful mum is coming to help, she has the patience of a saint thank goodness, a hobby I want stick to but I keep giving up, but I am struggling on, it's the whole time thing so gonna give it another bash. I always give up at the first hurdle so this might be the first thing I follow through with...exciting!! and also, getting out on my bike and getting some exercise, might help with the (ssshhh...moods) and work on these extra loafs at the bottom of my back either side, just above my hips, I don't want them there anymore....yuk!!!!

So if you read this, little encouragement would go a long way.