2 weeks down, 4 to go.....

I just want to say that I'm sorry for not blogging, I'd love to be on here more but time is limited at the moment due to school holidays etc...I completely agree with cuckoo's recent blog, trying to find a balance is a job in itself  but hey that's what us women do best isn't it!!! and don't we do it well, so big pat on the backs ladies.

I love looking at photo's on others blogs, it helps break up the blog and a picture tells the story so well but my effin (only 6yrs old) camera has died and gone to heaven and my mobile is from the dark ages, in fact it's quite an embarrassment and I try not to get it out that often so unfortunately I am pictureless for a while.

I'm on a diet, CCCCRRRRRAAAAPPPPP, why is it that you constantly feel hungry, even though you read that you shouldn't allow yourself to get hungry by eating little and often ie. carrot sticks and fruit etc, you still have that hunger prang, it's day 2...yep only day 2...and I'm hungry but I try to imagine what those poor babies and young children must feel in Africa and then nearly punch myself for moaning, but so far it's going well and I'm going to start swimming one night a week and maybe try to get out on my bike another night, but I don't want to 'overdo' it at this early stage (any excuse).

I've been invited to one of Darr's friends girlfriends (get it!!) 30th birthday party and I will do anything I have to not to go, the girls boyfriend (Darr's friend) is a complete and utter prat, I could call him much harsher words but I won't lower myself, I actually hate the guy (long long story why) and I know he hates me so it's far easier if we don't go BUT Darr wants to.....gggrrr!!!! trying to persuade him that he should go and I'll stay home with the little ones but he's not swallowing it (pardon the pun), he says it's time to move on bla bla bla, whatever Darr, it wasn't you that fell out with him!!! so any suggestions would be appreciated, I don't want to be seen as the 'awkward wife' and actually it might...might be nice to see some of the other people but I just don't want to see him and well....it's not like he's not going to be there.

Had another trip to Southampton hospital this week, me and the little ones are seen there by our specialists, little lad was born with a hole in his heart that has now sealed over and little lady has a heart murmur on top of me having Cardiomyopathy (Hocom) that they may also have as it's heredity, anyway it was for little lady and yes she has a heart murmur but hopefully it will never effect her, they will just keep an eye on her every two years.  We (my brother and I) are going to have some blood taken for Genetic Testing, basically if they find a matching genetic fault then little lad and little lady can be tested to see if they have the same genetic fault and if so then they will at some point develop Hocom but if they don't have the genetic fault then they won't develop it which of course is what I am hoping (praying) but if they do then I know I can cope with it and have a plan for their care, So I am now waiting to hear from a Geneticist so we can get the ball rolling.

I might not be back again for a few weeks but I'm still here and reading your lovely blogs, roll on September x x x x x