2 weeks down, 4 to go.....

I just want to say that I'm sorry for not blogging, I'd love to be on here more but time is limited at the moment due to school holidays etc...I completely agree with cuckoo's recent blog, trying to find a balance is a job in itself  but hey that's what us women do best isn't it!!! and don't we do it well, so big pat on the backs ladies.

I love looking at photo's on others blogs, it helps break up the blog and a picture tells the story so well but my effin (only 6yrs old) camera has died and gone to heaven and my mobile is from the dark ages, in fact it's quite an embarrassment and I try not to get it out that often so unfortunately I am pictureless for a while.

I'm on a diet, CCCCRRRRRAAAAPPPPP, why is it that you constantly feel hungry, even though you read that you shouldn't allow yourself to get hungry by eating little and often ie. carrot sticks and fruit etc, you still have that hunger prang, it's day 2...yep only day 2...and I'm hungry but I try to imagine what those poor babies and young children must feel in Africa and then nearly punch myself for moaning, but so far it's going well and I'm going to start swimming one night a week and maybe try to get out on my bike another night, but I don't want to 'overdo' it at this early stage (any excuse).

I've been invited to one of Darr's friends girlfriends (get it!!) 30th birthday party and I will do anything I have to not to go, the girls boyfriend (Darr's friend) is a complete and utter prat, I could call him much harsher words but I won't lower myself, I actually hate the guy (long long story why) and I know he hates me so it's far easier if we don't go BUT Darr wants to.....gggrrr!!!! trying to persuade him that he should go and I'll stay home with the little ones but he's not swallowing it (pardon the pun), he says it's time to move on bla bla bla, whatever Darr, it wasn't you that fell out with him!!! so any suggestions would be appreciated, I don't want to be seen as the 'awkward wife' and actually it might...might be nice to see some of the other people but I just don't want to see him and well....it's not like he's not going to be there.

Had another trip to Southampton hospital this week, me and the little ones are seen there by our specialists, little lad was born with a hole in his heart that has now sealed over and little lady has a heart murmur on top of me having Cardiomyopathy (Hocom) that they may also have as it's heredity, anyway it was for little lady and yes she has a heart murmur but hopefully it will never effect her, they will just keep an eye on her every two years.  We (my brother and I) are going to have some blood taken for Genetic Testing, basically if they find a matching genetic fault then little lad and little lady can be tested to see if they have the same genetic fault and if so then they will at some point develop Hocom but if they don't have the genetic fault then they won't develop it which of course is what I am hoping (praying) but if they do then I know I can cope with it and have a plan for their care, So I am now waiting to hear from a Geneticist so we can get the ball rolling.

I might not be back again for a few weeks but I'm still here and reading your lovely blogs, roll on September x x x x x

Blog Award...

Thank you so much Fee for giving me this award, I've only been on here a few months and already feel like I've made new friends and that makes me feel so happy, so here goes - 

10 Facts about Bee

1.  I can wiggle my eyes, not just go cross eyed, they literally wiggle, I have no idea how I can do it but I can and it really freaks people out when I show them, love it.

2.  My first car was a Fiat Panda 750cc, multi-coloured inside and powder blue on the outside, it had no radio so I had a tape player (I know, don't laugh) perched on the passenger seat, 3 days after passing my test, happily driving along my fav song came on, think it was Belinda Carlisle, anyway, I looked over to turn the volume up and then looked up in horror as the hedge was getting far too close and I literally span the wheel round so ended up then far too close to the hedge on the otherside of the road then span back again, took off (yes at this point I am in the air), went straight through a farmers hedge and into his field with very high crops, I think I stopped about 500yds in, took a deep....deep breathe and carried on driving, trying to find the gate, in my rear view mirror I could see lots of faces peering over the hedge, I didn't stop, I kept going, found the gate, opened it quickly and drove the back lanes home, not a scratch on the car but the field looked like a crop circle gone wrong when I went back the next day!!! oops

3.  I have a heart condition called Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy,  a very long story but basically it's a condition my brother and I have, it is hereditary from my beloved Daddy, he didn't know he had it and passed it onto us, at present I'm doing ok, I see my specialist every 2yrs in S'hampton, I won't bore you with the details but it's something I live with and rarely think about, it could get worse, so what....so do my spots!!! hey ho

4.  My daddy as I mentioned above passed away 7yrs ago, 6mths before I go married, I was devastated and only just last year I crumbled and had counselling, he was an amazing daddy, would always smile and make me laugh every day, he had a wicked sense of humour and was silly, not adult like at all, he was very very kind and would not say a bad word about anyone,  I miss him terribly.

5.  I have a very special person in my life, who I couldn't live without, she's my sister friend and we're as close as close can be, I feel very lucky to have someone so special like that as I know many don't, we have thousands and thousands of memories which we always go over, we once lived together with another girl, who quite frankly was a sandwich short of a picnic and we decided to hide from her in the cupboard under the stairs, I was fully dressed while my sister friend had only her top clothing and a pair of tights on, if anyone had opened that door....imagine!!! we were 24yrs old at the time...eek

6.  I once had a bonk on a Berry's coach to London and the bus was full.....I have no idea to this day how we managed to get away with it or even why I did it, this person I have to say was a bit pervy and I was naively persuaded, in fact when I think about it, it horrifies me, what if children were on the bus!!! what you do in your teens hey

7.  I once drank 20 shots of vodka in one go, I vaguely remember being found some hours later in someone's hedge, how I got there who knows and I also only had one shoe, the other was never found by Prince Charming...boo hoo

8.  I'm a Royalist, I love absolutely anything to do with the Royals, I've read the books, watched the films, documentaries, love them, GOD SAVE THE QUEEN .  And come on everyone, Harry is not the son of Charles, he is the son of James Hewitt..who are they kidding

9.  I once was very grown up (definitely not grown up now) and bought a bottle of wine, along with my other house mates, from a company called 'Fine Wines', we had to buy 12 bottles and the price was etc etc..can't remember all the details but I've never drank the bottle I chose, it holds too many fond memories and it's still on my wine rack today, Errazuriz Cabernet Sauvignon, 1995, Chilli.  It will be with me forever, plus it would probably taste shite now

10.  As some of you may know, after having children things are never quite the same in...the south region and I'm lucky enough to now have a Designer Vagina...oow that sounds horrid, I had to have a minor operation after little lady was born as things were not 'quite right' and now it's back to normal, well as normal as can be!!

taa daa - 10 facts about me, little Bee - I hope to god you are now not thinking I'm a complete nutter and stop following me.....pretty please xxx

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