Horrid Horrid PMT.....

Ok to those that know me best know I have horrid hormones, I take a Well Women tablet every day (which has Evening Primrose Oil & Star Flower), it does seem to help but it's that 'time of the month' again and I'm feeling the blues.

I literally could cry at any moment, it makes me feel so low and I've got no get up and go, I have no enthusiasm for crochet, cooking or even going out the door (wish I hadn't put myself down for overtime tonight).

Little lady has a nasty tummy bug which meant I couldn't attend mini cuckoo & cuckoo's christening and to top it off yesterday I needed some milk, the shop is only just up the road so bundled everyone in the car, along with a towel & bowl for little lady and on route witnessed a nasty car accident and had to wait 35mins for the emergency services to arrive.....so all in all...CRAP!!!!!! (sorry for the language)

Anyway, I have all the ingredients for my christmas chutney and runner bean chutney so am going to pull my sorry ass off this stool and get on with it.

These two monkeys cheer me up no end

Luv Bee xxxxxx

leather....yeh baby!!! & my godson

My gorgeous smelling, soft to touch, just gorgeous, cosy/comfy leather sofa's have arrived!!!! BUT I felt quite sad to say goodbye to our old, tatty blue, extremely uncomfortable 2 x 2 seater sofa's because they were our first sofa's we bought together in our first house before moving where we are now and I am a sentimental old fool...

I'm giving them and all our old furniture to 'Womens Refuge' so they'll be going to a much needed new home.

Big Ted, Spidey & Darlin have pride of place

Twinkle lights are out

Today is my gorgeous godsons birthday party, I can't believe he's going to be six next week, I remember the day so well when he was born, the phone calls to say the baby is one their way, the mad dash over to cuckoo's mums, I was still in my pjs and didn't realise as I was so excited so we had to quickly drive back to my house so I could change and then drive to Bristol, I expected this 'giving birth' business to take ages so left cuckoo's mum to go in with her and I sat with a book comfortably in the waiting area.......the seat wasn't even warm when Mr C walked over to me with the BIGGEST grin I've ever seen and say, in a shaky voice, it's a boy!!! I then told Mr C that I didn't believe him as I'd only just sat down and looked back at my book, after he repeated himself I realised that he wasn't joking....I was obviously in shock at this stage but he said I could go in and see them, when the door opened and I saw cuckoo on the bed and big cuckoo I couldn't believe my eyes, my gorgeous girl had only just bloody gone and done it, the emotion was hard to contain, tears slowly ran down my cheeks and I wiped them away telling myself to 'get a grip', cuckoo looked at me and said, I've got a son...it still chokes me now to say it, there were doctors dashing around but I didn't see any of them, I kissed her softly and remember thinking how in awe I was of her, then after a little time cuckoo asked the nurse to pass big cuckoo to me, he was like a fresh peach, he smelt divine and I couldn't stop smiling,  he was and still is just perfect.  I now can't wait to see my family, even though we actually aren't sisters and they aren't actually my nephews I still refer to them as this, as in our eyes they are.

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Home alone.....

It's Tuesday morning, little lad is at school, little lady is at nursery!! what on earth am I going to do now...BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back, so so sorry for not being able to blog or leave comments on your wonderful blogs, I'll just have to let you all know that my time is so limited so I'll just get on when I can, I'll try to blog at least once a month and hopefully more once the routines settle down.

The summer holidays were lovely but I was very ready for little lad to start school by the end of it, he went off on his first day with a skip in his step and so far so good, little lady on the other hand had tears at nursery, pulled on my heart strings big time but I know it's for the best as this time next year she'll be starting school....EEK!!!

best friends (most of the time)

little lad doesn't wear his blue crocs to school (honest)

ministry of sound was playing.....

I haven't had any time for crochet either and to be honest I get very easily bored so I'm having a break away from my gorgeous granny squares and started to make some coasters, here's a sneaky peek

by the way, this is my new carpet (which I can't stop sniffing)

I think these are very sweet, darr doesn't like them,
 don't use them then Mr Miserable

I recently had an evening with some lovely friends down at Chesil Beach, Abbotsbury, we went Mackerel fishing, well Abby and I watched and drank wine and the boys fished, it was such a wonderful evening, a good gossip and lovely food, we took a bbq and the boys caught 7 Mackerel, Simon placed each one in some foil and then tucked in some garlic and lemon and a huge dollop of butter and then put them on the barbie for 30mins....delicious!!!!

our little set up

one of my dearest friends

gorgeous sunset

I have problems with the effin tabs, sorry!!

I hope you are all well my lovelies and ready for Autumn, my favourite time of the year, I've already picked loads of blackberries, apples and sloes, chutney's and sloe gin here I come!!! yum yum

Take care my lovely blogging friends and I'll catch you all soon, love Bee xxxxxx

Great British Bake Off, Crochet & Power Walking!!! phew...

I've just sat down on the sofa after a Power Walk/jog, I went to the doctors on Monday with a few issues, I always like to take a list with several problems, I build them up, she finds this very funny, I can't just go with one thing, I have to go with several, weird I know but that's me.  Anyway one of the things was that I've been dipping again, no not in the sea, with my hormones, alittle low and she suggested that I try to do some form of exercise but nothing to heavy as I can't, she suggested Power Walking for 30mins, 3 times per week and tonight was my first time, it felt quite good BUT I'm useless at sticking with anything, I always give up or can't be bothered anymore, so fingers crossed I'll stick with this, she said that exercise helps serotonin flow and naturally makes you feel happier so watch this space.

So I'm sat on the sofa as I've said, ready to blog, turn the t.v on and GASP!!! The Great British Bake Off is on...uuhh!!! no adverts on t.v, no one has mentioned it...oh ekk, I love this programme, thank goodness for BBC IPlayer I say, I'll watch it tomorrow night as it had already been on for 45mins, I love Mary Berry, I find her recipes easy and yummy, she's just great and I do like Mel & Sue, I think they annoyed Cuckoo on the last series, well I think it was Cuckoo, I find them really amusing,

Granny Blanket is coming on...

Cuckoo kindly assisted with these photo's, well actually I can't take any credit, she took them all, she does take a good photo, here's some more

I would really love to crochet some coasters for my new (if that ever happens...) living room, has anyone got a any nice patterns or suggestions, I was advised to use cotton yarn rather than my usual acrylic yarn and also to starch them but I'm just not sure as I'm still a beginner, so any suggestions would be appreciated.  

I was well chewy this weekend when I mentioned my crochet to some friends and their husbands at a BBQ, they basically completely took the mick out of me and called me an old granny, I felt so defensive, in fact I could have punched my friends husband who is a complete hob nob....gggrrr, it made me so angry, I really love it that I've found something I really enjoy, I've tried a drawing & painting course with my mum, who I have to say is very talented and I'm certainly NOT good at anything arty, Cuckoo even helped me with my Art coursework, I think she drew a mouse or rabbit....I'm sure she'll remind me.

Anyway, so to have eventually at 35yrs old find something I feel very passionate about, feels slightly relieving really, that I found a hobby I enjoy and can do!! 

The last few weeks has all been about keeping calm and carrying on, as they say, it's been a bit stressful trying to keep my little ones happy and on the go, I know I shouldn't say this but I'm looking forward to school term starting, it's hard work as Darr has had hardly any time off so it's all been down to me with the entertainment, although we did have a family day down at Chesil Beach near Abbotsbury on Sunday, we all had a go at fishing and caught 7 mackrel, great fun and the children loved it, if they are happy, we are happy.

It was great to see my gorgeous angel Cuckoo and the boys this week, just what I needed, we had lots of fun and I especially enjoyed cuddles with mini cuckoo, although I did make him cry at one point!!! precious time with my family, just lovely.

Off for more gorgeous crochet now, enjoy the rest of your week girlies, much love Bee x x x x

2 weeks down, 4 to go.....

I just want to say that I'm sorry for not blogging, I'd love to be on here more but time is limited at the moment due to school holidays etc...I completely agree with cuckoo's recent blog, trying to find a balance is a job in itself  but hey that's what us women do best isn't it!!! and don't we do it well, so big pat on the backs ladies.

I love looking at photo's on others blogs, it helps break up the blog and a picture tells the story so well but my effin (only 6yrs old) camera has died and gone to heaven and my mobile is from the dark ages, in fact it's quite an embarrassment and I try not to get it out that often so unfortunately I am pictureless for a while.

I'm on a diet, CCCCRRRRRAAAAPPPPP, why is it that you constantly feel hungry, even though you read that you shouldn't allow yourself to get hungry by eating little and often ie. carrot sticks and fruit etc, you still have that hunger prang, it's day 2...yep only day 2...and I'm hungry but I try to imagine what those poor babies and young children must feel in Africa and then nearly punch myself for moaning, but so far it's going well and I'm going to start swimming one night a week and maybe try to get out on my bike another night, but I don't want to 'overdo' it at this early stage (any excuse).

I've been invited to one of Darr's friends girlfriends (get it!!) 30th birthday party and I will do anything I have to not to go, the girls boyfriend (Darr's friend) is a complete and utter prat, I could call him much harsher words but I won't lower myself, I actually hate the guy (long long story why) and I know he hates me so it's far easier if we don't go BUT Darr wants to.....gggrrr!!!! trying to persuade him that he should go and I'll stay home with the little ones but he's not swallowing it (pardon the pun), he says it's time to move on bla bla bla, whatever Darr, it wasn't you that fell out with him!!! so any suggestions would be appreciated, I don't want to be seen as the 'awkward wife' and actually it might...might be nice to see some of the other people but I just don't want to see him and well....it's not like he's not going to be there.

Had another trip to Southampton hospital this week, me and the little ones are seen there by our specialists, little lad was born with a hole in his heart that has now sealed over and little lady has a heart murmur on top of me having Cardiomyopathy (Hocom) that they may also have as it's heredity, anyway it was for little lady and yes she has a heart murmur but hopefully it will never effect her, they will just keep an eye on her every two years.  We (my brother and I) are going to have some blood taken for Genetic Testing, basically if they find a matching genetic fault then little lad and little lady can be tested to see if they have the same genetic fault and if so then they will at some point develop Hocom but if they don't have the genetic fault then they won't develop it which of course is what I am hoping (praying) but if they do then I know I can cope with it and have a plan for their care, So I am now waiting to hear from a Geneticist so we can get the ball rolling.

I might not be back again for a few weeks but I'm still here and reading your lovely blogs, roll on September x x x x x

Hook...and go

I've really missed blog over the last week, I've got loads to read and here's a wee one from me.

My Granny Blanket is coming along, so so many more square to do but this is how it looks so far

4wks work....

When I look at them above I keep thinking, crickey it's going to take a LONG time but it'll be worth it and actually that feels quite a nice feeling, my first simple project that I now feel comfortable doing may be finished late autumn, lovely.

one of my favorite squares

my little stack

I've been thinking for a while now about leaving Waitrose, my little cleaning jobs are going well and I actually enjoy doing it (never ever thought I'd say that), so I approached my line manager and explained how I felt and she suggested moving department and alter my hours, so that's what I've done, as of the end of Aug I'll only be working one evening and my other hours will be in the day, I feel quite excited about this new move so fingers crossed it'll all work out.

I felt I needed to stay really as although I wasn't earning huge amounts from Waitrose there are the pros of staff discounts etc plus I am desperately saving for a new living room.  We've already decorated and our new sofa's arrive in Sept, I've chosen some gorgeous solid oak furniture but I need to save my pennies but hope to be able to have it all done before the end of October, one major pain a few weeks ago put a spanner in the works.  Darr took the radiator off the wall so we could decorate and when he put it back on he didn't turn the top screw tight enough and flooded the carpet with rusty water....GREAT!! and it's not the first time he's done this but oh well....I've never ever claimed on my house insurance but decided to give them a call and to cut a long story short I also now have a new carpet arriving.

Had a great day out today with the children and my neighbour and her little girl, we did a bit of shopping, I know...mad with 3 children but they were fairly well behaved and then we went to a new park which they absolutely loved, however little lad ended up having a sand fight with another boy, lots of tears and bla bla bla, what is it with boys, little lady seems like a saint compared to her brother these days, he's got an answer for everything, but but but, no not doing that, your not my friend anymore ARGHHHHHH, honestly once he is in bed I just find I collapse on the sofa, I'm hoping it's because he really really needs to start school and I'm sure it's just another one of the phases, do those phases ever pass? if he's anything like his dad..NO!!!

I'm off to catch up on other blogs now, be back soon luv Bee x x

Cracking crochet...

I'm sort of going off my crocheting of Granny Squares, I got on with it tonight but still struggle with the effin first round GRRRRRRRRRRR, making me all cross and annoyed, so I've put the square to one side and am trying something else for a little break, snow flakes, that way I get plenty of time before..I can't say the word yet but you know what I mean!!! the 'C' word

They are very pretty and I quite like trying something different, I'll be back to the squares as soon as, I would like my blanket finished before the the end of Autumn (ha...yeh right...good luck with that Bee)

What a week so far, nursery is packing in a leaving concert, leaving picnic, leaving sports day, leaving top-table sale, phew!!! I'll have to do this all again next year when little lady leaves nursery for big school, they seem to be cramming so much in, poor little lad is exhausted and so are we.

It's little lads 5th birthday at the beginning of Sept and he really REALLY wants a party, so...I've handed out 8 invites today and the faces on the mum's whose child didn't get an invite....oh bugger off, for goodness sake I can't invite all 20 little ones, I felt like I had to explain myself, is this usual?? once he starts school will it just get worse??  I'm doing a little tea party at my house and there really isn't room for any more, it always seems to rain on his birthday so my idea about a picnic was brushed to one side, if I did invite all 20 and then it did rain then my house would end up in turmoil, am I being a bit unfair?

Off to bed now and I might just take my square with me (no not Darr, he is asleep on the sofa....and snoring!!)

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